jump

ok ask me how much i thought about the professor today.... go ahead .... ask me.....
ALOT!
so i get home wondering what i am going to do about this... how i am feeling, having a date scheduled with new patrick on wednesday.... i come home after all my errands and sign onto the computer and i see an email from new patrick.... he was replying to my email i sent him last fucking week when he was in st. louis.
he wrote
hi amy, you are too kind! unfortunately i am not interested in dating right now. im sorry.

what the hell! didnt he just aske me out yesterday? does he not know who wrote him this email? am i on drugs? is he on drugs?

i have to be honest, i was smiling as i read this email... my decision was made for me.
i have no idea how to respond to this.... but i will respond. and i want my dvd back!

i called jean and she and gene were at wings and called me over... then i called old patrick (who forever more will just be called patrick) and we had a few beers and nice time.

i came home and made both my profiles unsearchable... and i want to call the professor so bad. but i have not.

so from here i just see how it goes... i see where it takes me.
this might be what i need and what i am looking for.
it might not
but either way....
i am jumping in with both feet and i am looking forward to where it leads me.