pork

so i am actually brooding about something.... new patrick is not a 'sharer' and i have no idea how much he likes me....
i made pulled pork in the crockpot today so i left him a voicemail at around 1:15 when i was coming back from lunch telling him that i made it and if he would like some for dinner just let me know. told him i was thinking about him and hoped to hear from him soon.

it is 7:24 and no call yet.... like i told jean he probably wont ignore me completely but will call when it is too late to come over.... not on purpose.... that is just the way i think it will happen.

i just want more chances to be with him to see how he feels. i know how i feel about him... and i am pretty sure he likes me, but i would love more chances to figure him out.

all i know is i am not pissed that he has not called yet... because he took friday off and maybe he is working late.... there could be any number of reasons, legitimate reasons why i have not heard from him.

the important part here is that i am ok with it.
i could not say this about 2 weeks ago.... i see that i am finally growing.