he has been home about 30 minutes and i already want to kick him to the curb.
i am so angry right now.... i cant believe that i had such a great weekend and now he is back and there is nothing but turmoil
my heart races and i just want to run away
i am not cut out for this single mom crap
i am not any good at it
all my good feelings about myself have gone out the window in a flash
i want to run away from all of this.
how can someone be so evil to someone they 'love'
i know it is totally normal for a teenage boy to scream and be defiant
but i am so sick of it all
i do the best that i can for being alone
i dont have a dad i can fall back on
i dont have a 'wait till your father comes home'
i dont have a rational partner to help me calm down
this is probably the hardest part of my life so far.... harder than the marriage, harder than the divorce, harder than scott dying.
i am feeling as though i am on trial every day of my life
i feel like nothing i say or do is right even though i know it is
parenthood is draining, taxing on the brain and emotions, and something that i know i will love again someday but right now i am at my wits end.
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