i think i am doing pretty good at this single mom thing... i handled him pretty good earlier, sure sure i wanted to run away from home.... but to him i was strong and held my ground.
and for some reason i continue to be breezy.
i am not arguing. i am accepting.
i hope that it sticks with me. who knows with me, this could be just a short phase and i will be back to the paranoid crazy girl i was before. but i hope that this is a new me. a more confident and positive me.
who knows if i will hear from the professor or not... and when.
but i think i will... i know there is attraction there, i am just not sure if it all comes down to physical or if there is a more emotional and intellectual attraction as well. i know i feel it for him but i am not sure if he feels it for me... and that is ok.
i will deal with this day to day and go from here.
if he was to 'break up' with me, i am sure he would do it in an adult fashion either on the phone or in person... not in an email or just stop calling.
i am glad i dont have the distractions of match and yahoo personals to get me befuddled again. i will just see where this goes and if it goes nowhere i will put my profiles back up.
i am not feeling as pressured and in a hurry like i was before.
i dont think i will be alone forever, i think someone will come along that will be a good fit for me.... maybe it will be the professor, it would be nice... but if it is not, i will survive.
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Blah! Too bad no one took you to the bar for a nice evening away from home!
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