today josh is off for his first time away from me this summer, it is only 4 days but it is on a weekend that my new friend the professor will be away so my friends jean and patrick will probably take the brunt of me being lonely... they are good sports and usually let me tag along quite a bit... i feel like a third wheel or just an unwanted wheel on a unicycle which ever the case may be... but they never make me feel that way... i am lucky like that.
looking forward to the professors call today... i hope it happens and i hope that we can arrange something soon. i am excited to continue what we started on sunday, and to see if it really is 'there'... the connection. he seemed genuinely happy to speak to me last night.
so as my pattern goes.... i will be fine today but if he does not call today, tomorrow is freak out day... i am trying to train myself not to have that knee jerk reaction like that.... what makes me forget is pete, damn pete, who called me 4 times a day and we talked for 30 minutes plus each time....
that is NOT realistic in the real world. no one has that kind of time... well maybe eeyore cause he is unemployed, but he had no voice so there you go!
the professor is a full time employed adult who is busy alot.... phone calls will be sporadic, to say the least... but what i look forward to with him is the time spent with each other. that will probably prove to be of much better quality than any i have experienced so far on this journey... or before for that matter. i can only base it on the 6 hour conversation we have had so far but i am probably pretty correct in that assumption.
today is going to be busy at work, i have to catch up .... again... from being out of the office yesterday. but i am in a pretty good mood so i might get alot done. i hope so.
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