i wonder

ok so the slate is cleared

i wrote back to dumbass patrick and told him that was fine, i am all for honesty, and could he please mail my son's dvd back to me.
i wrote to joe in enfield and told him that i had some stuff come up in my personal life and it is not a good time for me to be dating right now, and i apologized.
i know, not so much truth there but it was what i thought fit the situation.
so there is actually no one else but the professor right now.
i called last night and got voicemail and just said i was thinking about him. the professor, i do not think will be scared or freaked out by that at all.... unlike some dumbasses we know.

so here i am in that vulnerable place again... i have put everything aside to see where this goes... i wonder where it will lead.... i wonder if he will drive me crazy... i wonder if he is the one....

today we have an appointment with mom for her hernia incision, tomorrow i have court way up in leominster and then i will go to worcester to help out for a while and then i have to be back in town to get josh for his yearly doc apt. and get all the camp forms filled out.
and josh leaves for the cape on thursday to sunday with the scouts.

it is a whirlwind and then nothing, whirlwind then nothing... that is how my life goes.